Nocturnal Dimensions of the
Future
Once I drew a line around myself, dug my
shape into a rich field
Some night fell in, bruising itself
The fresh dirt was a muscle stowing away
years
It wasn’t dead, it just couldn’t
sleep
I stuffed night’s hem into my mouth to
stay shut
Night also buttoned up when it couldn’t
find a thing to adorn
When it couldn’t find a fly to
swallow
If I keep my eyes quiet, if it mistakes
me for blind
I dry heave fits of impure air
One night, until I had it all to
myself
If I could retrieve that night from a
dream
Its air wakes up inside my lung, bearing
amplifications
Shovels score the dark and damage
allergies
When I am awake back and forth for so
long I can’t remember
Being left or not being left alone, I
fall bed to bed to bed
If I could move toward it while moving
away
Night kills what it shifts into; I pine
for what I
alight
I looked in all eight directions then
spread my tiger’s skin on the floor. Before the public mind kicked in, I
surveyed an inner shore. Its crystal facets operated on me. I lost my
lights and began my midnight thus: mental feet, mental lake, little mental
pines, mental mile around the muzzle. I aimed my automatic at that
outlandish organ hanging in the sky like a dazed stone. Its sea expression wet
the evening air; I captained the tempest there. Looking too long into the
distant human pupil, I sharpened my harpoon. But my hands could not be
organized. I wanted to tightrope up there on a mental binge. I reached for my
quiver, and soon arrows ascended the degrees, bristling. My bird described a
failure one depth below time. The moment rotated. Its color was extreme. In a
heavy steel helmet, I matched that orb and tried to tackle it by a hundred
mental muscles. The more I bruised it, the more I couldn’t see it. If I could
turn it open like a glass knob, feel my way in. If I could tongue out its creamy
mouth. If I could tickle it and bounce it on my knee. If I could dress it up. If
it would fist me, if I could force it. The more I battered that moon, the more I
could be
it.
Nine stitches and liquid morphine cannot
keep it closed
Lunar halo runs circles more than hollow
Steel birds fly from
clocks
Striking the same hour in
rounds
A freak disease tears across the vista
You’ve been told this is the year of
medicine
Lunar halo must bother you tonight with
some life
Stronger than satellites with strong
melancholies
The situation of radar gone
deaf
War shine and flare lit in the
lips
A ring of unknown men
waiting
To think of it is a tourniquet
Embracing you to the point to the point
of
Sugar awake in the animal
disaster
Vaccinations break and they bother you
The situation of its
waves
Puts catheters in
blather-mouths
Time for you to ride
Even when it acts hypnotic or
botched
Tornado hanged in
example
Eye sticking to its
guns
It must bother you with oblong torment
tonight
Between your deserts and escaped
stars
Messes of radial spoils steal on
you
Recognize your continuous
tattoo
Lunar halo casts your face in
harassments
It dissolves former weather in your
ear
Takes up with your
hexes
Ice becomes gas blasting into a foam
hole
Out of which zodiac carcasses
crawl
Under lunar halo, anyone who waits
For sleep waits to be seen
to
My first mind is night driving on and on.
My blood evolved from this pitch and one night’s tar accumulated in my mouth. If
I go with my face made up, occult currents get plumbed. Their magnetic air is
self-taught and not handled well. If I am fully in night, I cannot think ahead
or use a song to get there. Night makes time by not remembering to go back. I
make it mine by owning up to what I am not. Stars are swinging doors that
miracle away the shift. I am driving high into the taste of vanishing and
starting points. Their arrows double-joint the dark. I am driving into my own
eyes. Yellow lights pill the horizon hills. If I keep night to my right side, it
ramifies at me until my solitudes splinter. My pulse stuck to the signal:
turnoverturnoverturn.
you may pound this night as much as you
please
you will never pound into me what you
think
you say the contrary, and the lashings
madden
night thinks you should pay for
it
pound at your belief until it’s empty of
you
loaded with lords aft and boxes of
forward lucifers
but how could a lucifer get fire in this
crying night
you could fill buckets at your drenched
hems
no lightning rod will channel this night
(it will pound me no matter)
and better than a stormbird on its last
wing
you pound this metal against my
skull
defang the dark’s thunderstalk swerves
words pound at me because I won’t use
them
night gnaws and unknots the anchor
your lordish hours form unknown
conduits
and unknown songs empty into my lungs
only to drag dark after me and lurk it in
my orders
it pounds its meaning into
me
that blankness packed with impressions I
will not salvage
I endure the irate
backpounding
endure the obsessions that stand in for
you
I borrowed hours to finish you and
borrowed a dream to falsify my night. I borrowed night after night until I had
one to myself—abandoned that night. I borrowed a prayer in owl light, borrowed
devotion and the words. To be sure, I borrowed a cocktail dress. Felt my way
along night-blooming creepers until I felt extravagant with a cigarette. I
borrowed that and your infant phantom. I took it on credit. I took out what I
took me to be. I borrowed a stone room to keep you and kept you in the dark. I
grew another dark and owned its circulation. Borrowed a second wind, and left a
note on fair trade. I made the words fall, made the falls faster. Into a hole I
dug. I tried to rescue that silence. I entered it in my lab coat, and I entered
it on a black horse. Driven to the wrong address, I burrowed in. I borrowed your
only idea and gave away darkness. I tried to give way, to the dark I tried to
give a way.
let the ocean uptake shape your
cover
if by memory foam, if on a
dream-fast
do not use a sleep mask because of your
thoughts
snuff out the count with an open
mouth
let your night cape have a
gas-hole
lie groveling on your belly
the lead body lies down with the feather
body
you are not one of the guards
even if you can still feel
if your position is diagonal enough
a dark ball rolls void into
you
hasten to make use of that freed
dark
empty it the way
fatigue
is a way of worship if smashing waves
do not listen for where the sound
ends
if smashing waves consolidate you
then
night never finishes even
if
fully in it would you be unable
to
as undertow takes the child
think
of each part of your body vanishing your
skin
as the dark that stares and stares
back